Musings # 1

I had to take a break from writing in this blog. I had a good reason. When I started writing articles for this blog, many things started to happen. I started feeling that someone, or something, was watching me. Often times, all the hairs in my body would rise with no reason at all, accompanied by a chilling sensation up my spine. These eerie feelings are even worse at night (yes, I could still feel them during the day), that it came to the point that I couldn’t sleep anymore. I can’t even close my eyes and try to sleep, because I see images of demons. I can also hear other noises that suggest movement, like knockings on my wall or breathings near my ear. And every time I look at images in the internet, particularly the profile pictures of my contacts, they suddenly warp into screaming faces. I feel that I’m literally going crazy, so I decided to take a break in writing in this blog. Obviously, I write about controversial stuff, like Satanism and New Age, so I think that these eerie feelings are somewhat connected to my writing.

What really gave me the chills is a Youtube video. It was a Christian radio broadcast linking demons with aliens. I was watching it as a reference for my next blog entry. In the end of the video, they said that ONE SHOULD BE CAREFUL WHEN STUDYING ABOUT DEMONS AND OTHER RELATED STUFF, BECAUSE WHEN YOU ARE, THEY WILL START TO OBSERVE YOU CLOSELY AND MAKE YOU FEEL THEIR PRESENCE, which is what I think is happening to me right now.

I don’t expect anyone to believe me. That’s the appropriate reaction to someone who thinks that he can feel demonic presence. Then again, maybe everything is just a coincidence, or perhaps my wild imagination. Whatever the case, I'll be writing for this blog again. I just have to be brave enough to fight these weird feelings, whether they are real or imaginary.